Happy Wednesday sugar bees! Today I’m sharing a day of eats as well as talking about something that I’ve been really quiet about. I think it needs some light though. It’s hard for me to talk about it, but I’ve been working on being okay with being vulnerable and if me talking about it can help even just one person in any way, then it’s worth it. So here we are, talking about it.
So for the past at least 6 months, I’ve been struggling with my eating a lot. I’ve been turning to food when I’m upset, for comfort, and to distract myself from bigger issues I need to deal with. I also often feel like I’m not in control of my own eating. It’s like I can’t help but have that third bowl of cereal even if I’m already full, I become fixated on the idea of it and to stop thinking about it and just end up giving in. While I turn to food when I’m upset, I know it’s not going to help and always makes things worse, yet I still end up eating and eating. Which leads to a lot of negative self talk. Before bed I promise that the next day will be better and I try my best, but a lot of nights end up the same.
I thought this was just an emotional thing, but even now that I’m happier than ever I still find myself feeling out of control with food. It’s a terrible cycle of eating, discomfort, regret, disappointment, and frustration. I’m thankful that it doesn’t happen everyday, but it’s still something I need to actively decide to work through, so these past couple weeks I’ve been putting so much focus into it. Before I eat, I stop myself and try to really think about if I’m actually hungry, while I’m eating I try to really think about and savour each bite, and some days I actually write out how I feel after each time I eat.
These little steps really do help, but just think of all the extra brain space I’d have to use on great ideas and projects if I wasn’t constantly thinking about if I’m really hungry or trying to stop myself from food. It’s tough, but I’m working on it and know I’m capable of becoming a ‘normal’ eater.
It actually feels really good to share this with you because it’s been a huge part of my life and I don’t like keeping things from you friendly faces. If this is something you do or have struggled with, feel free to e-mail me to chat!
Okay okay okay now eats!
Breakfast was cinnamon chia oatmeal with frozen bananas, blueberries, some chocolate, and a little bit of crunchy peanut butter.
Bed of spinach + arugula, sushi rice, steamed broccoli and carrots, maple soy tofu, and a drizzle of sweet chilli sauce.
Everything about this was perfect. This tofu might be my new favourite and it’s so simple. I just marinated it in bragg’s liquid aminos (or soy sauce), maple syrup, garlic powder, and ginger then cooked it in a pan. So good.
I spent a couple hours at a coffee shop doing some writing and photo editing and was hungry when I got home so snacked on half a flatbread tortilla, celery, carrots, and lemon rosemary hummus.
Sweet potato fries, roasted broccoli, peas, black beans, lemon tahini, and a little barbecue sauce for dipping.
My obsession with sweet potato fries is back. So good. But seriously missing the magic of my airfryer at home!
I finished my night off with some popcorn, a couple slices of frozen banana, and one vegan sour gummy worm for a sweet bite.